The mother of a newborn baby says she has had to deal with the grief of having her baby delivered, but that it was an experience she will never forget.
“The pain is real.
You don’t know how long it will be, but it hurts, I can tell you that,” Michelle Anderson said of the pain of her baby, who died on January 6, 2020.
Anderson said her life changed forever when her baby died at home.
“It just took me a while to process that, and the next day, I got to the hospital, and I just sat on the floor, crying, because I knew that my baby was going to die.
I didn’t know what to do, and that’s when the baby died,” Anderson said.
Anderson’s daughter, Ella, was born just hours after her mother’s death.
She died shortly after birth.
The baby’s funeral took place on January 7.
“She died, but I just felt the same, the same grief.
I cried every day that I was in that room, that I would never see my daughter again,” Anderson told ABC News.”
My daughter was like my entire world.
I loved her like a brother, and my whole life I never saw her again.
I can’t believe that I have to go through all that again,” she added.
Anderson told ABC’s Good Morning America that she hopes to make the decision to give birth a family decision.
“I think I’m not ready to have a baby.
I think I need a little bit more time.
I have a couple more years on my life.
I want to do this and go home and have a little more time to myself,” Anderson explained.ABC News’ Lauren DePillis contributed to this report.